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Aug. 4th, 2009

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Stephanie

I wanted to write this here, 'cause I needed it to go somewhere. Thank you, Livejournal, for never abandoning me.

I had to check to see if my best friend frequented anymore, but she doesn't. Neither of her journals are active. So, I feel relatively safe writing this. I don't want to hurt her feelings..

My best friend. Stephanie. I met her in college, we bonded instantly. She was beside me for nearly three years. I took advantage of that, her always being there, on her computer, sitting quietly, talking with me. At times she felt like another half of myself, with how close and how fast we were together, like our brains tuned in on the same wavelength and stuck there. I love her. I love her so much.

Now she's got a new job. In Texas. She was already so far enough away already, and now... Texas. I.. don't know what to say. I mean, I'm happy for her!! She got the job she wanted! She rocked it! She impressed everyone, like I knew she would, because she really is truly amazing! I didn't have a doubt in my mind that she would get it... But I had a doubt in my heart. This job is taking her farther away from me. And although I'm a horrible friend and I have absolutely no RIGHT to be saying these things or feeling this way, I do. I do and it hurts so much inside to know that she's leaving for good. For real. Saying goodbye to her family and to Florida, while I'm here, missing her so very much.

Her smile, her laughter, her sense of humor, her quiet and strong personality. I love them all, and god I miss her so so very much. I've missed her everyday since I graduated. I missed her on our birthdays. I missed her whenever she would tell me something about DnD while she and the others were still up at school, going on without me and I'd wish that I was there, just to sit next to her. To be with her, together with all of our friends, and simply just live in that college life forever.

I know it's a stupid dream, and I know we're all past it. But. I wanted it. I want it. That dream of being so close to her again. She made me so happy. I took care of her, and she took care of me (although it was mostly her doing the taking care of) and she made me feel like I mattered to someone in this damn world. She made me feel amazing. Like I was above everything else, not in the bad way, but the inspiring way. I loved those feelings.

And now she's leaving. She's going so far. I can't invite her to my house for my birthday, 'cause she won't be here. I can't call her without a cellphone. I can't text her. She'll be so busy, she won't be able to come onto deviantART anymore. I won't see her. I won't have a way to be with her anymore. It's...so sad.

I'm sorry I'm so selfish and ugly. I'm sorry I'm so needy. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you. I'm sorry I didn't try harder. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry it's not good enough. I'm not good enough. I'm not god enough for you. Stephanie, I love you. More than you or even I have ever realized.

I hope this job is everything you've dreamed of. I hope you meet new people and fill their lives with the same gifts you've showered on me. I'm so blind not to have seen that now, until it is utterly too late to do anything about it. So I'll smile, and I'll be happy for you, and I'll send you off with laughter and best wishes and all my love. But I'll be so sad on the inside. And my final gift, as someone who's loved you so all these years, is to not let that sadness show in my eyes or in my voice, because I love you. I want to spare you from the pain of my need and my selfish want. I'll spare you the feeling guilty, or feeling bad. I don't want you to have those feelings about me. I want you to know that I am HAPPY for you. I really truly am so completely HAPPY.

I love you, Stephanie. Thank you so much, for everything. I wish you only the best. I wish you happiness and complete and utter success. I will always support you, even when you no longer think of me. I will pray for you, and think of you every day. Good luck! =D
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HOLY SHIT!! o__o

I'M FUCKING ALIVE, GUYS!! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT!? XD

So much has happened. =E I left my apartment, my fiancee left me, and I'm about to join a volunteer program that teaches children how to achieve their reading level. I'm actually doing coursework right now, but I'm ten-ways procrastinating. You like that one? XDD

SO. I live with my parents now, I'm single, and I don't have a car or a cellphone, so there's no way I can go out and celebrate my single-ness. XD I did go to a con a few weeks ago with Momo and Karen and we had so much fun!! ^^ I still have to see Mandy and Steph, but hopefully, something will work out~

Still drawing and writing, a lot more that ever, actually. O_o Link: http://uzumakiaya.deviantart.com/

Dude, I've seriously got to change this journal's layout. I mean, I like it! But it's so dark. XDD I'm not in the mood for dark. I want bright and colorful and happy!!! ^w^ We'll see what I come up with when I actually get around to doing it. XD

Later~ <3

Mar. 10th, 2009

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headache of epic proportions...

Dude. For real. I just want to go lie on my bed with my laptop and have blissful and utter silence. Or rather, silence in which I play what I want to listen to and what I feel like hearing. Two tv's and a computer running, and the only one not making noise is me (well, besides my typing anyway, as my brother just pointed out). My throat was hurting and now my head is hurting and letting my hair down hasn't helped. Persona 4 is playing on the large tv. Call of Duty 5 is playing on the smaller one. Magic spells and character voices and sound effects for every little thing are pounding into my head (still love the game, please don't get me wrong). What's sad is, I can identify whatever sound is happening on screen without even looking. Menu, menu shuffle, healing, running, door opening, more running, enemy alert, swing, enemy encounter, and now the battle music and all the sfx glory. Owwwwwwww... >_o

Mar. 9th, 2009

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Sing for Absolution

Lips are turning blue
A kiss that can't renew
I only dream of you
My beautiful
Tip toe to your room
A starlight in the gloom
I only dream of you
And you never knew
Sing for Absolution
I will be singing
And falling from your grace
There's nowhere left to hide
In no one to confide
The truth burns deep inside
And will never die
Lips are turning blue
A kiss that can't renew
I only dream of you
My beautiful
Sing for Absolution
I will be singing
Falling from your grace
Sing for Absolution
I will be singing
Falling from your grace
Our wrongs remain unrectified
And our souls won't be exhumed


Posting lyrics is so out-dated and emo. =) Don't care--I'm doing it anyway. Song by Muse, my new musical lovers. =D Feel like drawing. Gonna go.

Absolution.

Mar. 5th, 2009

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What IS the subject?

Haha. Look at me. I'm posting in here. Posting. Me. After such a long time and after so many memories, here I am again. I'm returning to my past, my old stomping ground, my memories written on text and screen. No paper journals. No way to be found except by those who know where to look, or those who care to know. I can name a few people who don't even care to know. They did once, though.

So, here I am. A virus-free computer and an empty head, with little thoughts and feelings and urges floating through. I feel, as of late, that I've become desireless, except for things that will distract me from my current state of being. Things have become tasteless and words have become meaningless. Repetative. Endless. Trapped.

Wow, don't I sound like a little emo slit-my-wrists-as-I-cry-in-the-rain? Heh. Lately I've been delving into my past, seeing and thinking things that remind me of earlier times. Ex-boyfriends, old friends, and times where I was innocent and naive. I really was that way once, you know. Hard to believe, huh? I miss them, like you miss a part of yourself that you discarded because you thought it made you weaker and then later on you realized just how much you needed it. Birthdays have come and passed that remind me all the more. My hands reach out to make a phonecall or write a note, but I know that responses won't come, and that what I say or wish for someone no longer matters. Haha, there I go again. "Wah-wah-wah-WAH".

So, to update. I'm poor (that's nothing new). I've had a severe case of writer and artist block from which I can't seem to recover. I got a new dog. A German Shepard pup (although some will know that I did not want one). But I own her and her name is Shelby and she's slowly working her way into my heart. Megacon was unattainable again, go figure, but I heard it was a disaster. I feel sorry for the girls--they deserve better than that; they work so hard, and are so good and kind. I love them.

Several projects are going on at one time and are all currently at a standstill: I'm still writing fanfiction, I know, I suck.
-Naruto fanfiction "A Change of Seasons"
-Legend of Zelda fanficition "Duel of the Fates"
-original character DnD story "Garond's Quest"
-original character DnD story "The Children's Quest"
-original character story "Ange and Enjeru"
-13 Zodiac ornament sculptures
-game completion: "Star Ocean: Till the End of Time"
-game completion: "ArTonellico 2"
-game completion: "Disgaea 3"
-game completion: "Fire Emblem: The Shadow Dragon"
-game completion: "Prince of Persia"
-book "The Gunslinger"
Perhaps it's because I'm undertaking too many things at one time? I don't know. I feel so...unstimulated. Unmoved. Lazy. Not that that's anything out of the ordinary. I need to recharge and refresh myself some way, but I don't know how. My thinking just sends me into another downward spiral. I need something uplifting, close by, and free of course. We can't forget free. Ha.

File transferring is a son of a bitch.

God, I really don't know what to do with myself, and it's also making me hate myself and my current existance. There's no one to talk to about this, of course. I can't invite Stephanie, Monique, or Karen over for the afternoon--that's impossible. I can't call Kevin or Chris or Terrell--we all know how well that would go. No one online wants to put up with my bullshit, and I do not blame them, so I see them online but they block me/ignore me and there's nothing I can do except resign myself to it and move on. Ever wonder why I'm not on the messengers anymore? Now you know.

Yeah, I know: "WAAAAAAAAAAH". I'm over it. I'm done. That's all I ever am. Thanks for tuning in. See you next time.

Sep. 1st, 2008

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A Real Update (Finally...)

I just finished playing Kingdom Hearts II, can you tell? XD

Ahh, so then. What have I been doing since December?

Man, I should have saved those conversations on MSN so I don't have to repeat myself here...again. Hmm, well, you get the abbreviated version:

-I quit my job at Group USA
-I moved out of my grandmother's house
-My aunt and uncle are getting a divorce
-I'm applying to become an art teacher
-I fractured my ankle
-My fiancee plays Final Fantasy XI all day and night long
-My brother is going to join the Army
-My parents and I are actually getting along

I think that's about it. Generally, anyway. OH I forgot! I got my own Internets and a router! I'LL BE ON MORE! Woohoo!

I also forgot that I work at Spencer Gifts now, but the hours and pay rate are so crappy that I HAVE to look for another job already. But hopefully, that teacher thing really starts rolling and I get my temporary certificate by next school year. Hooray!

On a down note, my laptop is getting extremely laggy and won't play music or type on documents correctly (I'm having difficulty with it as I'm typing now). The CPU is incredibly busy, but the only thing I'm running is Internet Explorer. I don't know what the hell my computer's doing in there. I think it's crying for death at this point. After this, it's an Apple Notebook, for serious.

I've started playing the Halo games (I'm on number two now) and have reinforced the fact that I SUCK at shooters. Speaking of shooters too, my parents and brother came over this weekend to celebrate my birthday (as it's tomorrow!) and my brother and three of his friends played a drinking game called Thumper (my first drinking game ever!) and I got so wasted. XD I was at an unfair disadvantage seeing as I started playing already nicely on my way to being "fucked-up". But, I earned my Drinking Pass and I actually won a few rounds, being as drunk as I was. I totally had fun. I had never been drinking with my brother, so we learned a few things about each other. XD

Anyway, moving on from that.

Luis re-lent me his Gamecube and PS2, so I've attacked Naruto 4, Harvest Moon, Kingdom Hearts 2, Disgaea 2, Shadow of the Colossus, and (currently) Final Fantasy VII. Next is Tales of the Abyss (which Momo leant me). I played the PSP version of Gitaroo Man, found out it was a PS2 game, so now I'm searching. That game was SO MUCH FUN. XD

Luis also found the complete F3 (Frantic, Frustrated, and Female) and I rewatched it and forgot it's totally softcore porn. XD I just remembered it being hilarious! But it WAS! I just forgot it was also REALLY GRAPHIC.

After weeks of debating, I've decided to color my hair again. Black. I've been told red looks good on me, but I settled on black because I think I look nicer with black hair. Actually, I'm trying to work up the nerve to go through with it right now. XD

My father told me that I wasn't aggressive. Those weren't his exact words (he was basically telling me that I wasn't working hard enough at what I wanted, to dig myself out of my financial hole, no one's going to hand it to me), but that's what I got from the conversation we had. Or rather, how he talked at me while I tried not to cry (yeah, I'm still a crybaby). I had told my mother that I felt I was too nice, and let people do what they wanted, despite what I wanted. What she had to add to the talking-at conversation was: "You can't let people walk all over you, Jess. You have to do what's right for you sometimes, too." And now that I think about what she said, I could almost laugh and cry in hatred and self-pity (directed at my life, of course). It just... I don't know. Juan says my parents only say that because they don't know what we're going through, but I think he's wrong, and my parents do indeed know what the hell they are talking about. But he also said he thinks I'm working hard, and that at least made me feel better. But I also think my dad is right in saying that I shouldn't wait around for something to happen. I should work hard to get it...but that requires guts and money, neither of which I have. Heh.

Moving on to less personal topics, I've been keeping up with Naruto. And, can I say, what the hell? What the HELL? Naruto's training to be just like Jiraiya, Madara's got Akatsuki under his thumb and is leading them on a march to destroy Konoha, and Sasuke's all for Konoha-destroying and is going after the Eight-Tails. EIGHT TAILS. HE CAN'T HANDLE NINE, BUT EIGHT IS SO MUCH BETTER?! Sometimes, I get the feeling that Kishimoto HATES Sasuke and just longs to KILL him, but knows he CAN'T because of the fangirls. XD Messed up, huh? Sasuke, you have lost the number one spot on my bishe list! That honor now belongs to Roxas. Nyah. Not that he would even care. XD He'd be like, "Okay fine, whatever, one less obsessed fangirl, yay for me." I can't wait to see how Naruto and Sasuke are going to reunite. It'll be suspended for EVER at this rate.

The new Artemis Fowl book (#6 - The Time Paradox) was actually less of what I expected. I LIKED it, I'm not saying I didn't! But it felt...forced in parts, like the guy was trying to think of a way to just keep the series running and finally stumbled upon "OMG TWO OPALS WTF YES I ROCK". -_- I dunno. Disgaea 2 #3 is supposed to be coming out this month, so eyes are open for that. That Opal thing was a spoiler, by the way, but I'm too lazy to go back and mark it. Besides, CSI LA is coming on in twenty minutes, and if I'm gonna do my hair, I've gotta do it now.

So, off I go.

Update, yay! XD

Aug. 23rd, 2008

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Long-Awaited First Uber-Quest Summary

I know I should be posting RELTIVE things, like what the hell I've been up to since DECEMBER. But I'll get to that. Eveually. This post is special attention to Yuki, Steph, Momo, and Peach. DJ too, if he ever sees this:

This is how the first quest went down (more or less). Tell me if I missed something, put something in the wrong place,and Peach, give me the names of those children. XD


Main Characters:
• Aya Evangeline (eldest, becomes new goddess of Edena)
• Vaughn Evangeline (middle, possessed by Vincent and kills Reid, rules the joint kingdom)
• Karin Evangeline (youngest, has foresight)
• Harlan Demarcus (eldest, possessed by Vincent)
• Nero Demarcus (fled the downfall of his castle and is hidden in Moonflow temple)
• Seraph (half-human half-dragon, wishes to serve Prince Vaughn after an act of kindness)
• Rosaria (black mage who resents her father)
• Soaphilius (Soap, a priest of Moonflow who has a vision of Edena’s fall)
• Ziggy (a thief who meets Soap and tags along)
• Seiya (a ninja girl who becomes the royal family’s personal guard)
• Xanthe (accompanied Seiya because he cares for her)
• Dominic Orniter (searching for his lost sister with Ki’Ke)
• Ki’Ke (last name unknown, travels a little with Dom to help him find his sister)
• Darken (an advisor to the Demarcus family; he was part of an extinct race, killed by Remiel)
• Kiske (Darken’s pet, which is not quite wolf or dog—she is the reincarnation of Corana)
• Vincent (Mr. Skunk Hair, leader of the Rune Wakers)
• Lithan (double-agent, spies on the group for Vincent; first in command of R.W.)

Sub Characters:
• King Seth Evangeline (sacrifices his life to help the others escape with the pendant)
• Queen Cyrene Evangeline (dies by an assassin’s hand)
• Reid Demarcus (dies by Vaughn’s hand while he was being manipulated)
• King Ulric Demarcus (killed by Vincent, who tried to frame Harlan)
• Queen Claire Demarcus (fled with Nero and Reid, but they were separated and she was killed)
• Seraph’s mother (human, deceased)
• Seraph’s father (dragon, missing)
• Darius (Rosaria’s best friend/interest)
• Soap’s Seven Sisters (various hair product names)
• Olivia/Oliver (Ziggy’s sister/works as an underground spy)
• Ziggy’s mother (name forgotten)
• Lynk (Ziggy’s youngest brother)
• Zelda (Ziggy’s second-youngest sister)
• Seiya’s parents
• Xanthe’s parents (father dies mid-quest)
• Hokage (leader of the hidden ninja village)
• Ryu (Soap’s ninja friend)
• Caleb (Rosaria’s ninja friend)
• Helena (captain of the Edena guards)
• Gabriel (one of three royal advisors to Edena)
• Keane (captain of the Prothis guards, twin)
• Kerr (Prothis royal advisor, twin)
• Lenne (Prothis royal advisor, in love with Kerr)
• Moonflow Temple Priestess Sakura (temple leader)
• Ichigo Temple Priestess Alexandra (Alex, monk, temple leader)
• Seph (Ziggy’s friend, monk)
• Tera (Ziggy’s friend, hair changes from blond to red when angry, fan-wielder)
• Joshua (Ziggy’s flamboyant friend)
• Zane (Ziggy’s ex)
• Leon (alchemist that befriends the ninjas at the tournament)
• Avery (young loremaster who is the first and most gruesome death, killed by a R.W.)

Outline of Plot:
• The Kingdom of Prothis is attacked by unknown assailants
• Keane, Kerr, and Lenne flee with the Queen and the two younger children, Reid and Nero
• They separate, one charge per person
• Keane and the Queen are overwhelmed and killed
• Kerr and Nero are wounded but successfully escape to the Moonflow Temple
• Lenne and Reid are captured and returned to the palace
• In the confusion, the king has been assassinated
• Harlan and Darken fight their way to freedom
• Harlan instructs Darken to flee to Edena and warn them of the attack
• Darken flees Prothis with Kiske
• That night, Soap has a vision of Edena being engulfed in a horrible white light
• Without permission, Soap travels to the border of the two lands, meaning to warn the king
• Soap and Ziggy literally bump into each other and Soap’s ankle twists
• Ziggy offers to carry Soap to where he needs to go
• Previously, Ziggy had been drinking himself out of depression
• He attempted to join a thieves guild, and they rejected him for being gay
• They continue on to the capital
• At this time, Edena is holding a Tri-Force Tournament
• Seiya is chosen to be the representative of the hidden village
• Her village was created specifically to guard the royal family
• Xanthe accompanies her, wanting to “keep her out of trouble”
• They arrive in the capital, which is overrun and bustling
• Seraph arrives in Edena and heads straight for tournament registration
• Rosaria and Darius arrive (Darius accompanies her for moral support)
• Ziggy and Soap arrive
• Soap sends Ziggy to look at what all the commotion’s about, and for pudding
• Ziggy and Rosaria meet briefly
• Seiya and Xanthe sign up
• Rosaria signs up and Darius goes into the crowd to cheer her on
• Ziggy reports back to Soap at the healers
• Soap, nervous about his vision, insists they go see the king
• Tournament begins, Helena is referee
• There has been a new rule, very recently added: one can win by killing their opponent
• This is unnatural, and is reflected in the confusion of the fighters and spectators
• Some forfeit, but most carry on
• There are five or six black-robed figures who take particular joy in the killing rule
• Tournament is separated by number matching, 1-64
• Players move up in the tier
• Rosaria and Seraph battle, Rosaria loses, Seraph takes her to the healing tent
• Aya makes an appearance in the healing tent
• Tournament continues, Dom and Ki’Ke are moving up, but are also defeated (by forfeit)
• Seraph and Xanthe face off, Seraph loses, and becomes depressed
• The final fight is Seiya vs. Xanthe, and Xanthe forfeits, making Seiya the winner
• Seiya and Xanthe are invited into the castle by Helena
• Aya invites Rosaria and Seraph into the castle
• Through all of this, Ziggy and Soap have used the lax in guards to sneak into the castle
• They make it past the first few floors (Ziggy attacking a solid gold door in thief’s lust)
• They are captured by the prince, Vaughn, and nearly beheaded on the spot
• The king calls them out onto the balcony, where he watches the tournament
• Vaughn leaves
• The king introduces himself and Soap tells him of his vision
• King Seth expresses that Cyrene (his wife) and Karin had similar visions
• Seth sends Soap to his wife’s chambers and gives Ziggy a gold pendant to hold for him
• Seth also asks Ziggy to spy on the group in black and see what they’re up to
• Soap waits by the queen’s chambers politely, and a man in black goes in and comes out again
• Soap goes in to see the queen has been murdered, and rushes back to the king
• Ziggy threads through the spectators who hang around and chat, listening to the people in black
• A black-clad man emerges from the castle and gives a signal, and the others slip into the city
• Ziggy tries to report this to the king, but is intercepted by Aya, who mistakes him for a thief
• As Ziggy explains to Aya about her father’s request, Soap’s cry of murder pulls them back inside
• Present: Seraph, Seiya, Xanthe, Vaughn, Aya, Karin, Helena, Ziggy, Soap, Rosaria
• Helena orders Gabriel and the other two advisors about the intruders
• Helena tells Aya she must flee, and temporarily asks the rag-tag group to escort her out
• Helena will take Karin in a different direction to split their pursuers
• Dom and Ki’Ke come in, Dom badly wounded with an encounter with a Rune Waker
• Aya cures him and Ziggy gives her the pendant (a little upset at her demand and threat)
• Seraph holds back to find Vaughn, who is on the landing upstairs
• She goes to inform him of the situation and ask him to leave with them, when he captures her
• Vaughn holds her hostage, and explains that the Rune Wakers are under his command
• His goal is to overthrow the kingdom and claim the Edena Pendant (the one Ziggy gave to Aya)
• Seiya and Xanthe free Seraph and drag her out with Aya, who’s insisting she go help her father
• They flee to the border of the city, when a terrible white light engulfs the kingdom
• Aya throws up a protective barrier that saps all her strength, with the pendant’s help
• When the light fades, Edena has turned into a ruined city and nothing remains
• Aya mourns, for her father gave his life to cast this obliteration spell
• After collecting themselves and trading information, Seiya and Xanthe lead them to their village
• They collect themselves at Seiya’s house, while Xanthe takes Aya to petition the Hokage for help
• The group encounters Ryu (Soap, pudding) and Caleb (Rosaria, scrolls) and Kerren (Ziggy, sex)
• Aya goes missing as the day passes, and the city meeting is about to take place
• The group retraces her steps and finds her in an abandoned shack, unconscious
• When she wakes, she explains a few ninjas who are against the royal family tried to attack her
• Those two ninja are put to death, and the Hokage states that all will support Aya in her quest
• Aya wishes to travel to their neighboring kingdom of Prothis to see if they have been attacked
• They are escorted to the lake, and travel across to Ziggy’s hometown
• The group stumbles upon Darken, half-dead and frazzled; he attacks them and faints
• They take him and Kiske inside, to Ziggy’s mother’s house, where they’re all introduced
• Aya tends to the fallen Darken while the others discuss the safest route to Prothis
• Her hand on his head gives Darken a vision of her kingdom being eradicated
• He wakes, and tells them to help him help Harlan, who is back in Prothis
• That night, Aya tries to intentionally wake the power of the pendant, but fails
• The group reforms, regroups, and sets off to Prothis, with Darken and Kiske
• They reach the Prothis border; the whole countryside is crawling with black-clad figures
• Darken leads them through the swamps to the servant’s entrance of the castle
• They sneak inside the castle, where they see Harlan enter the throne room and follow
• They confront Harlan and Vaughn in the throne room, and Vincent makes an appearance
• He reveals the existence of the Rune Wakers, and how Harlan and Vaughn are his puppets
• He commands Harlan and Vaughn to capture Aya’s pendant
• Reid throws himself suddenly into the fray, showing them a hidden passage behind the throne
• Vincent commands Vaughn to kill Reid, which he does as they’re escaping
• Reid stammers that his brother Nero is at the Moonflow temple
• Darken and Seraph must be dragged away to save Nero
• The company travels to Moonflow Temple, where Soap reunites with his sisters and sees Sakura
• Nero clings to Darken, but will occasionally speak to Aya
• He also possesses his mother’s journal, where a page with weapon names has been marked
• Aya and Darken share their feelings, much to the amusement of the others
• As Sakura discusses whether to keep Nero here or let him go, Seraph and the kids find Lithan
• He follows them, regardless of what they say to him, saying simply that they interest him
• The group is uncomfortable with Litan following, and discuss such on the way to Ichigo Temple
• They decide to grab Karin from Ichigo Temple and keep both children under Aya’s supervision
• This will also remove the threat of being attacked from the holy temples (temple compromise)
• They pass by Rosaria’s hometown, but she refuses to stop by
• They decide to return to the ninja village to decide on their next course of action as they pass it
• When they reach the temple, they find it under heavy attack by the Rune Wakers
• Reacting quickly, the group charges into the fray, running into Alex (recruited by Helena)
• While the Rune Wakers are driven back, Aya rushes with Nero to find Karin
• Karin—holding her mother’s journal—wails and cries that a dark god will descend upon them
• Outside, the summoned dark goddess Corana looms over the battlefield (summoned by Harlan)
• Aya and party try to counterattack the summon, and Lithan’s true identity is revealed
• He steals an artifact from the temple and flees to Vincent’s side
• Lithan is Vincent’s second-in-command, who leads the Rune Wakers, and was spying on them
• Lithan is chased out of the group and Aya’s fear and stress summon the light god Remiel
• The Rune Wakers retreat and everyone collects themselves
• Alex grants them audience with the temple priest, (forgot name)
• He tells them the legend of Remiel and Corana
• Remiel created Edena and the elements of Fire and Air
• Corana created Prothis and the elements Water and Earth
• Remiel craved control over both worlds, and went to war with Corana
• They fought over many realms, their battles creating the world’s “natural disasters”
• The ancient race of the (forgot—for the moment, the Shiekah) stood against Remiel with Corana
• Remiel attacked their village and killed every single one of them
• Corana sealed Remiel away in a pendant, and, to keep the balance, sealed herself as well
• Corana reincarnated herself into a wolf to safeguard the race’s last child—Darken (unknown)
• Armed with this knowledge, they assume Vincent is after both pendants to control both worlds
• How can they counterattack him with Harlan’s pendant and the princes as hostages?
• Awaken the four lesser gods and borrow their powers? The group returns to the ninja village
• The hokage tells them that their village has safeguarded the Earth Weapon for some time
• Apparently, the two queens had the foresight to hide the items from the oncoming threat
• Nero and Karin have the locations and the weapons in the journals, hidden with lines of prose
• Search for the weapons?
• The Earth Weapon is a given—bladed gauntlets
• There is a sword in the ruins of Edena Castle, and a Scepter in the Prothis Castle
• The Air Weapon is a set of scrolls in Ichigo (that were stolen by Lithan—unknown)
• The Fire Weapon is an axe in the Konoha Desert in Prothis
• The Water Weapon is a bow in the mountains of Prothis
• The first riddles they figure out are Fire and Water, so to Prothis they travel
• Aya, Darken, and the children stay behind to piece out more of the puzzle
• The rest split at the fork in the river, half going north (Water) and half south (Fire)
• Ki’Ke, Ziggy, Soap, and Rosaria go to the Water Temple
• Seraph, Dom, Seiya, and Xanthe go to the Fire Temple
• After retrieving the weapons, they head to Ziggy’s hometown, where they agreed to meet
• Meanwhile, Aya concluded that there was a weapon in the Edena Ruins and the Ichigo temple
• The treasure at the temple is missing—was it Lithan?
• They go to the ruins, and deep inside, find the Sword of Ages—Remiel’s sword
• During this time, Darken gives Nero a protective ring, so he and Karin will be safe
• They learn that the sword is not at full power, and must be activated at Remiel’s temple (north)
• They also return to Ziggy’s hometown
• Upon their arrival, the two groups meet and decide to crash at Ziggy’s until they are ready
• Ziggy’s house has been torn upside-down and the children are missing
• His mother has been murdered in a similar fashion to the queen
• Ollie returns, telling Ziggy the children have been abducted by the Rune Wakers
• Ollie turns out to be a spy, a double-agent at his bar that is trying to uproot the Rune Wakers
• His identity slipped, making him a target, so he blames himself
• Ziggy blames himself, so nothing gets done for a moment or so
• Dom quickly asserts that they must save the children, so Ollie stays to bury their mother
• Dom and Ziggy head toward an underground entrance into their hideout
• Halfway there, they run into Ki’Ke, who chased Nero down inside the tunnel
• Nero wanted to help save the kids, and they have no time to argue so they continue with him
• The group winds up in an underground abandoned storage hall of some sort, that the R.W. use
• The locked doors are no match for Ziggy, Dom, Ki’Ke, and Nero’s ring (has a magic nullify ability)
• In one of the locked rooms, they find the scrolls stolen from Ichigo, which Ki’Ke holds on to
• In one of the other doors are Zelda and Lynk, scared but okay
• They grab the children and rush back, before their infiltration is noticed
• Back at the house, Ollie has erased all evidence of their mother’s death, but the children know
• Ziggy takes a pair of his mother’s earrings from her room (sentimental reasons) and leaves
• Ollie says he’ll take the children somewhere safe, and lay low for a good while
• He suggests Ziggy continue with his group of friends, and not come back until things settle down
• They leave for Seiya’s town instead, to stash the weapons and think of the next course of action
• Once there, they find the ninja in an uproar
• Apparently, the Rune Wakers are coming here, and surprised a small group on the border
• One of them—dead—is Xanthe’s father, another is Ryu, Soap’s friend
• While Xanthe goes to vent about his father, Seiya checks on her mother (a medical nin at work)
• Then she goes after Xanthe, to comfort him
• The others settle themselves nervously at Seiya’s, not sure what to do
• Aya suggests offering their powers to the hokage and the ninjas
• The others agree and go to do just that
• The hokage is relieved (they need help) and stations them with several different attack groups
• Seiya joins the med nins and Xanthe joins the troops
• Rune Wakers attack in waves from all sides—the ones Seraph encounter have a scepter-wielder
• Seraph transforms and claims the scepter (it is the mission Staff of Ages—Corana’s weapon)
• Like the sword, the scepter is not active, and must be restored at Corana’s Temple (south)
• Aya and Darken’s group encounter Harlan and Vaughn, who seem to lead the assault
• Vincent’s power over them seems to be weakening, and seeing Aya stills Vaughn’s hand
• Darken overpowers and restrains Vaughn while Aya summons the power of the pendant
• She battles Harlan and his pendant-summon-spirit with her own
• Harlan is defeated and subdued; Aya reverts and faints
• The Rune Wakers retreat (whatever of them is left) and everyone returns to the village
• Seiya is exhausted from constant healing; Xanthe has forced her and her mother to return home
• The group returns to their house, plus Harlan and Vaughn, and rest as well
• Aya and Vaughn awaken first; the three Evangeline siblings finally reunite
• Vaughn explains of Vincent’s attempt to control both princes and simultaneously, both pendants
• But his miscalculation was that Aya was the elder, not Vaughn, and snatched the wrong sibling
• He tried to lure them to Prothis and kill them there, but Reid intervened and it cost him his life
• After that, Lithan was sent to them as a spy, and found out about the weapons for Vincent
• The attacks on Ichigo and the ninja village were planned efforts to retrieve the hidden weapons
• Vincent over-thought his reach, and control over he and Harlan was severed, thanks to Aya
• Vincent leaves to think about the things he’s done while under Vincent’s control
• Harlan awakens, reunites with his brother and Darken, and shares a similar story to Vaughn’s
• He also knows a bit more: Vincent has made a pact with the god Remiel in his temple (north)
• That source is where he receives all his power from, and they must stop it with the weapons
• They must travel to the god temples on opposite ends of the country and activate the last two
• Seraph goes outside to inform Vaughn of their decision, and just to be near him
• She vows his loyalty to him, which gives him mixed feelings of gratitude and sadness
• The group decides to split in half to get this done quickly
• Nero, Vaughn, Harlan, Dom, Ki’Ke, Seraph, and Darken travel to Corana’s Temple (south)
• Karin, Aya, Ziggy, Soap, Rosaria, Seiya, and Xanthe travel to Remiel’s Temple (north)
• Logic: since Corana is magic-based, only physical-oriented people can enter her temple
• And vice-versa (Ziggy is considered magical because he can cast magic while the others can’t)
• Ninjas (jitsus are considered magic, so they are considered magical)
• The formation is a just-in-case precaution, because other temples have needed specific things
• Also, the owners of the respective pendants (Aya and Harlan) must go to the respective temples
• As they begin their journey north, Aya’s group finds Ryu, actually wounded, not dead
• He reports that Vincent has not been seen at the battles, so to be on the lookout for trouble
• Ryu returns to town for much-needed medical treatment (much to Soap’s relief)
• In the south, everyone (mostly Seraph) must push a giant slab of rock to enter the temple
• They brave the challenges inside and Harlan activates the Staff of Ages
• In the north, a great magical barrier blocks their way, and they must break through it to enter
• This group also braves the temples traps and challenges, and reach the alter room…
• …only to find Vincent there, waiting for them
• Xanthe, Seiya, and Ziggy lunge; Rosaria and Soap cast; Aya hides Karin and gives her the pendant
• Aya uses Vincent’s distraction to race to the alter; he is not distracted, it was a trap
• Aya activates the sword and Vincent takes it from her and kills her with it
• Getting what he came for, he disappears
• Aya’s soul has been taken from her body (the sword’s natural power) so she cannot be revived
• They take her body and return to the village, where the others await their return
• There is a procession for Aya; she is buried where she fought and reclaimed the princes
• Karin takes some of Aya’s hair and makes five bracelets, tightly woven into links
• One for her, Vaughn, Darken, Nero, and Harlan—the people directly related to her
• It is mentioned that before this, Aya and Harlan were planned to marry to unite the kingdoms
• Vaughn carries his sister to the house to sleep and Harlan does likewise
• The others leave the grave of their own accord
• Darken is the last, and swears on her grave that no one else will die in this war, except Vincent
• Vaughn is nowhere to be found; Seraph goes searching for him—finds him at a playground
• The others timidly begin making plans, but they have no idea where Vincent is
• Meanwhile, Seraph tells Vaughn of her past, her mother dying
• The mounds she makes are to remember her, and a way to “show” her the places she’s been
• This stirs up a memory in Vaughn, and he recognizes her as the small girl he gave water to
• When Vaughn was young, he traveled with his father to the Western Wasteland
• They provided food and water to the struggling people, and Vaughn gave Seraph a glass
• She was moved by his kindness, and vowed back then that she would always serve him
• She “grew up” for him (in the physical sense, because she was a half-dragon, and already grown)
• She entered the tournament to win and forever be beside him
• He fully remembers, she is happy, he tells her he wants her by his side
• Meanwhile, the others decide it would be best to return to Ziggy’s town, also the R.W. HQ
• They can try to find Ollie, and ask around, or even infiltrate the HQ for information
• Karin and Nero must be left behind, because watching over them would be distracting
• Karin refuses to let Darken go, so he slips out of his tunic and frees himself, distracted
• The next day, they do just that, and use Ziggy’s abandoned house since they have nowhere else
• Ziggy is very apprehensive, and he calls his three close friends to go out for a round of drinking
• The others resupply and try to ask around, but everyone’s very keyed up and not talking
• No sign of Ollie or the kids either
• Ziggy is drinking at Ollie’s old bar with Seph, Tera, and Joshua, and overhears a conversation
• A Rune Waker (black uniform, a red badge—officer) talks about orders from Lithan loudly
• He’s obviously drunk; Ziggy sends another round over and listens in; Joshua leaves the bar
• When the drunk Rune Wakers get up to leave (three, including the officer) Ziggy follows
• Tera and Seph go with him, and the three of them jump the drunk men
• One is instantly killed (way too drunk to fight back) and the other two fight back
• They kill the second and manage to capture the officer, and take him back to Ziggy’s place
• They try to interrogate him, without much success (between alcohol and loyalty)
• Ziggy (drunk himself) beats the crap out of the officer until he confesses
• Lithan frequents Prothis castle, meaning Vincent is most-likely there, hiding out
• They knock him out and leave very early the next morning (Vaughn can cook, it seems)
• Off to Prothis castle they go
• Darken, who has been out of it for awhile, has a dream about a ruined city on the Prothis border
• He instantly breaks from the group when he senses it near, and the group sends Ki’Ke after him
• They travel to the swamps surrounding the castle to wait for Darken and Ki’Ke’s return
• Darken and Ki’Ke stumble upon the ruins of the ancient race’s city (name forgotten—Sheikah)
• There are many depictions of the goddess Corana and a wolf, and a single man
• Ancient writing, which they can’t read, becomes legible to Darken
• This ancient race worshiped Corana, who was also represented by a wolf
• The man depicted is the one of legend who will rise with Corana’s powers and defeat Remiel
• Kiske, Darken’s wolf, reveals herself as Corana and explains that Darken is the child of destiny
• When he was born, Remiel heard the prophecy and annihilated the city, and tried to kill him
• That was when Corana sealed Remiel away and reincarnated herself into a wolf
• She took the baby to the Konoha Desert healer and Darken grew up there, without family
• When he went to give his services t the king, Corana/Kiske joined him and became his partner
• Unbelieving, Darken leaves the ruined city, almost leaving Ki’Ke behind in his rush
• They reunite with the others, who give Darken strange looks but do not press him to speak
• Ki’Ke tells them what he knows (only about the city, not about Darken’s past)
• The others have been scouting Prothis castle; guards patrol every street—it’s a fortress
• To avoid capture, the group splits into three chunks and enters from rear, side, and front
• Harlan, Soap, Vaughn, and Xanthe take the front way—most confrontation
• Darken and Ziggy take the back way—least confrontation
• Rosaria, Seiya, and Dom take the side way—they end up fleeing into the servant’s passage
• Darken and Ziggy (and candelabra of justice) take a long staircase down to a sealed gold door
• Harlan, Vaughn, and Xanthe are creating enough trouble to demand most guards (Soap heals)
• Seiya, Dom, and Rosaria sneak upstairs to find a lone woman in her room—Lenne, the advisor
• She had been hiding Reid, but he’d snuck out and been killed, so now she waits for Kerr
• Kerr was the advisor that took Nero to Moonflow (he died of too much bloodloss)
• He and Keane had promised her they’d return for her and Reid, but both have died
• They relay this information to her
• Saddened, gives them quick directions to Vincent’s throne room from here and asks to be alone
• They leave her, hear a strange noise, and look back in
• She’s killed herself
• Dom says it’s better not to revive her, because she’ll kill herself again
• Hesitantly, they leave her body and head for the throne room
• They meet Harlan, Vaughn, Xanthe and Soap coming in, looking haggard
• They can’t rest there, so they lead them back to the servant halls, where they bump into Ziggy
• According to him, they were at a sealed gold door and Darken suddenly vanished
• He leads the others back to the sealed gold door, motioning to where Darken had stood
• Darken and Corana have been transported into a “half-world” where Remiel waits to be freed
• Vincent received power from Remiel in exchange for being freed from the Evangeline pendant
• Corana possesses Darken’s body to do battle with Remiel
• Meanwhile, the royal pendants react to the gold door and it opens into a wide, empty space
• It is a platform with no walls, only a high ceiling, patterns on the floor, and eight mirrors
• Four rings in the central floor (red, blue, yellow, green); intentional grooves connect the mirrors
• There are niches for four different weapons in the four colored circles (axe to red and so forth)
• Placing the weapons in the niches make walls of elements that connect the mirrors (diagonally)
• Casting the right element at the joined mirror at the same time nullifies the elemental walls
• The rings on the floor activate, but do nothing, and they’re stuck
• Dom, Xanthe, Ki’Ke, and Ziggy (the fastest runners) go out to lure Vincent into the room
• Vaughn and Harlan express that they feel no power coming from the royal pendants
• Darken/Corana are fighting; Remiel’s a god, and Corana’s powers are reduced significantly
• Vincent is lured in by Dom and the others, Dom coming in first with a chunk of Vincent’s hair
• Vincent’s extremely angry about the “haircut” and expresses so by kicking the crap out of them
• Seiya tries to do a ‘henge’ technique—where she takes Vincent’s form to confuse him
• Vincent uses it on ¬her, confusing the others and almost making them attack the wrong Vincent
• Change of tactic: the group just tag-teams on Vincent all at once
• He uses another ninja tactic (the ‘substitution’ technique) to put Lithan in his place
• Lithan is dead, big time
• Another scuffle ensues, resulting in Vincent’s ‘henge/substitution’ of Ziggy’s ex, Zane
• Ziggy is distracted by an injury, and Dom and Ki’Ke quickly toss the body into the void
• The fighting resumes; Seraph even transforms into a dragon (Vincent tries to capture her)
• The battle between Remiel and Darken/Corana is turning; Vincent is distracting Remiel
• Corana/Darken deals a deathblow (but he’s a god, he can’t die), and a stunned Remiel flees
• Corana and Darken separate (Corana reverting to Kiske) and return to the normal realm
• Remiel’s “defeat” causes him to surge into Vincent fully, to end this battle quickly and recover
• With the pendants power returned, the weapons resonate and summon the four lesser gods
• A fire spirit, a water nymph, a sky sprite, and an earth fey revert to “human” forms
• Fire, male, axe; Water, female, bow; Air, female, scrolls; Earth, male, gauntlets
• Their powers converge, and a junctioned Remiel and Vincent are cast into the void
• YAY, THE END!
• …not
• Vincent and Remiel’s powers combine to create a great black dragon-esque demon
• Final fight! The four gods strike the demon to shatter its defenses and disperse
• The group battles a Vincent/Remiel who is very pissed
• Vincent and Harlan, using the weapons of Ages, paralyze the demon and re-summon the gods
• Vincent/Remiel is defeated in a spray of blood and light and a screaming/cursing fit
• THE END, FOR REAL!
• …still not.
• With the god of light dead and the god of darkness still living, the balance is broken
• The world begins a plunge into darkness
• Not knowing what to do, the platform beneath them collapsing, the group begins to flee
• A white beam of light parts the darkness and stops the tremors; all is calm
• After a moment, Aya appears!
• She has been chosen by the gods to ascend to Remiel’s place as god of light
• Her spirit had been banished, due to the Sword of Ages power, but Corana summoned it here
• Aya can live as a goddess and watch over them
• She asks Harlan for a favor, and when he consents, she possesses him
• Then, she hugs her brother and tells him everything will be just fine
• The kingdoms will unite, the Rune Wakers will be punished, and both princes will rule all
• Aya removes herself from Harlan and says farewell to all, and she will always be watching them
• She ascends, with Corana (which leaves Darken without a wolf-familiar)
• With her new powers, Aya transports them to a new castle; one forged by the god’s wills
• It sits directly between the ruins of Edena (now a holy place) and Prothis castle
• Prothis castle will become like a prison, to hold all the Rune Wakers who are captured
• The ninjas and the villagers and all the people are there, drawn by the mysterious castle
• Seeing the princes arrive by god’s blessings sends them into frenzied joy
• Karin and Nero are there, with the Hokage and Seiya’s family
• Ollie and Zelda and Lynk are there as well; along with Darius and Alex and a few others
• Vaughn and Harlan rule jointly, and will later on pass the thrones to Karin and Nero when grown
• Vaughn asks Seraph to marry him (her answer is a very ecstatic YES)
• LATER: Vaughn and Seraph have three children—Aya, eldest; Lux, middle; Seth, youngest
• LATER: Rosaria and Darius have twin boys (can’t recall names)
• And now, for real, they all live happily ever after. THE END.


Did I miss anything? Dear lord, I grew brain tumors trying to remember it all. @_@ Well, there's all I got. Correct me where I'm wrong, my loves.

And I'll give you all a REAL update very soon.

Dec. 2nd, 2007

Eyes

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An entire month has passed, and I can't think of a single thing to write.

I'm alive, I guess that'd be a good one. Erm, I don't want to go to work is pretty standard too. Oh! I got either food poisoning or a stomach virus! :D I know that's not something to be cheerful about, but I was happy I found something to talk about. I missed work on Friday and was schedualed to be off on Saturday, so I got two days of rest, soup, and medicine. The medicine did more for me than anything else, but the rest has worked wonders on my nerves. Maybe I really should stop staying up till god knows when. Nah.

Got DragonballZ Tenkaichi Budokai 2 for the PS2. It's actually a lot cooler than I'd give it credit for. The fighting system's a little difficult, but I'm getting it well enough. I kick ass with tiny characters, as usual. XD {{{SuperSaiyan2 Gohan!!!}}} I'm also starting a new Tales of Symphonia game with Juan in Stephanie's absence (sorry, my love ;_;). I'm running around as Lloyd going "how come Stephanie never died this much?" and "she never got into THIS many fights!" My boyfriend obviously hates being Genis and when I let him play as Kratos for all of six seconds, he was full of glee. He's lucky--I never got to be Kratos. XD Maybe I'll make him Sheena or something. He likes Regal but I'm like "dude, that's totally on like, the second disc".

I don't know what to read at the moment and it's driving me crazy.

I had something else I was going to say butAAAAAAAAAAAAI REMEMBER!! Disgaea 2!! I got my ass handed to me. XD I need to go back and level. There's this part of the game that's nothing but a geopanel nightmare and when I first saw it, I paused the game a literally cried. Some of these area effects are ridiculous, and I don't have a crazy geomancer in this game, but it's a required playing field so I don't think it would matter if I did. Did you know that I go into work at one and I got here at eight forty? I just thought everyone should know that.

Dude, I missed downloading like, FIVE chapters of Naruto! I'm gonna go start reading!

Nov. 1st, 2007

Eyes

My In-Head Conversation With God

Um, God? Are you there?
Yes.

Good! So that means you do exist!
In a sense.

Wait. I didn't get that...
Existance is something that is made.

And...you weren't made. Is that what you're trying to say?
Yes.

Okay, I think I've got it now. So, how exactly did you...erm, come into being, I guess is a good way of putting it?
By simply being.

Erm...okay...maybe we should skip this line of questioning. Ah! I have the perfect one! Why are we here?
To exist.

...I feel like I'm going in circles here. Can we clarify this? We're here to exist?
Yes.

...I don't get it.
Life was created with the sole purpose to be. Life was made to be lived. Living is your purpose.

Wait. Living is our purpose in life?
Yes.

What? No greater purpose? No pawns in some twisted game? We live just to live?
What is wrong with living?

Uh, a lot for some people.
It could be argued that not living is more inconvinient.

This is true.
Life is the birth, growth, and death of the individual. To live means to have experienced the sun, the moon, the wind, the rain, the earth, and every other gift that was left here for you. To live to your heart's pleasure is your purpose. To experience all of life's aspects that you care to is what you were made for.

... Are you saying that the earth is nothing but a giant playground?
To cultivate the soil that bears forth your foliage. To rise above the other species as earth's dominating predator. To laugh, to cry, to hate, to love. Experiencing all that is given to you, is that not a blessing?

I think it is.
Good.

So, then, why did you make us? Make this? Everything? Were you bored? Lonely? Or is this all for some sick and twisted amusement?
Why? Are you amused?

Uh, sometimes, I guess.
Life was created to be lived. No more and no less.

Okay, I got that part. So you just made us, to...make us?
Yes.

Were we like an experement for you or something?
Why would you think that?

I don't know. Sometimes life can be pretty cruel, you know.
It is part of the gift. The happiness you can experience balances out the cruelty.

I guess so...
You do not seem certian.

Well, I mean, I've seen some stuff, and heard some things too. Life can be pretty bad for a long time.
Which makes the happiness sweeter.

You...could look at it that way, I guess.
From the newly concieved life to the existance moments from ceasing to be, you are all free to choose how you will live. There are no limits except the ones that are put up by your own self, and those which others hold and you succumb to.

That's rather harsh.
It is only truth.

The truth hurts.
The truth shall set you free.

...you're weird.
Perception.

And cryptic.
An inability to look beyond what you know and see all for what it is.

Are you bitter about something? Because that's what this sounds like.
No.

Let me ask you another question then: Religion. Which one is right?
Yes.

Erm...okay, I'll try this again: Which one of the world's religions is correct?
It is.

Okay, you're losing me again.
And that is due to the inability to look beyond what you know and see all for what it is.

Are you trying to insult me?
Never.

So, tell me which one is right!
Religion is wrong; the idea is correct.

Right, I'm definately lost here. Explain this to me please.
The idea of all life being created by some force beyond its spectrum is true. The division of factions to this idea into systems of unshakable belief is incorrect.

So what you're trying to say is, organized religion is wrong?
Not that it is wrong, but that it should not matter who was created by what and when and why or how. Rules at one time or another are necessary, but to cause massive destruction and pain in the name of something no one is sure of... Is that not selfish? And petty?

But isn't that part of life?
This is true.

Hey! You asked me a question!
Is that not allowed?

Well, yeah! But I mean, I wouldn't have thought that god had unanswered questions.
Life is full of questions. Some are never answered.

I know. It's a bitch. ACK!! I didn't mean that! I'm sorry!!
Sorry for what? Having an opinion?

I... No, I guess not. But, you know, cursing in front of god...
A form of speech; a way to express oneself. There is nothing wrong in that.

Oh. Good. I, ah, just won't make it a habit, shall I?
As you wish.

You're really nice, god.
Thank you.

A 'thank you' from god! Does that kind of mean that I'm blessed now?
You have always been blessed, from the day you live until the day you die.

I see. You're a lot more talkative than people seem to realize.
The question is, are you willing to listen?

Yeah. Everyone insists that they talk to god, but no one ever really listens to you, huh? They only ask when they need something. Is that right?
Ask and you shall recieve. It might not be instant, but it shall come to pass eventually.

That's good to know. Thanks for talking to me while I was stuck at work, bored out of my mind. It was nice. Can we do it again?
Anytime you wish it, you may call out and you shall recieve a reply.

Thank you. Uh, amen, I guess I'd say here?
Whatever you decide, it will be correct, for it shall be true in your heart. And that is what matters the most.

You totally sound like a psychiatrist, but thanks again. Goodnight, god. Talk to you later.
Be safe, be well, and live.

I intend to.
Good.






...you know, I really did have this conversation in my head while I was closing up the store for the night. Call me insane if you'd like to, but I think a small part of me actually did something. Maybe it was my subconscious. Maybe it was my boredom. Maybe my head just gave my thoughts another voice that I didn't recognize because it was new. Regardless, here it is. You can hate me if you want, but we'll just say this is a work of fiction so I don't get the pants sued off me.

Goodnight, and happy halloween.

And please, live. =)

Oct. 30th, 2007

Eyes

Persona3 SPOILER

If you are my boyfriend, DO NOT READ THIS. If you are interested in playing Persona3, DO NOT READ THIS. I'm going to talk about the final battle now. I've warned you (and you specifically, Juan), so here I go:





After finding some strange, unmarked door to the far right of Tartarus (the dark tower), I discovered an ENTIRE NEW PLACE TO LEVEL!! But man, those shadows are insane!! I can barely beat three consecutive battles without being killed in some way, shape, or form. Crazy.

Anyway, so, after power leveling in that crazy hidden tower, I went for what I assumed was the end of the game. First, you've gotta climb up more tower floors. Second, you have to fight Strega for the last time. Individually. But with my power leveling, I kicked some Strega-ass. =D

Okay, final part. I get to the top of Tartarus (!!!). NYX Avatar is waiting for me; a new embodiment of the transfer student/friend you made, Ryouji. He's assimilated, well, no, rather, he IS Death himself, and has evolved into NYX, the bringer of the Fall, the End, whatever you want to call it. You've got to fight him, no surprise. You beat him in three hits (what the hell!?). Then, he changes Arcana on you!! You've got to fight the first thirteen numbers of the Major Arcana (starting with the Fool, ending with Death), each level immune to something different, stronger, with different attacks and more HP. So, by the time you get to number 13, it's slowly taking its time killing you. Oh, and it uses this thing called Moon Garment or something like that, which repels all physical and magical attacks. Not fun. -_-

Now, when you defeat NYX, you find out that you didn't win. He's pulling out some uber-nasty final attack shite that'll anihilate the world. Not fun. Your entire party can't move to attack or defend. You fall unconscious, and wake up in the Velvet Room, the place you do your fusions. the people there (Igor and Eizabeth) tell you that all of the social links that you've mastered throughout the course of the game give you their power to create the ultimate Persona. Everyone you're level 10 with appears and encourages you; here's my list:

-Yuko, Strength
-Kenji, Magician
-Kaz, Chariot
-Bebe, Temperance
-Akinari, Sun
-Maiko, Hanged Man
-Keisuke, Fortune
-Bunji and Mitsu, Heirophant
(not mentioned)
-Pharos, Death
-SEES, Fool
-NYX Anihilation, Judgement

Level 9: Maya, Hermit

Personas:
-Michael
-Metatron
-Seth
-Titania
-Quezacotl
-Horus
-Kouryu
-Byakou
(can't remember the others)

Other Social Links (not mastered):
-Yukari, Lovers, level 4
-Fuuka, Priestess, level 3
-Mitsuru, Emperess, level 3
-Hideshi, Emperor, level 3
-Tanaka, Devil, level 1
(can't remember if there're anymore)

In-Game Stats:
Intelligence - level 10, Genius
Charm - level 10, Charismatic
Courage - level 10, Badass

So, yeah. Needless to mention, my ultimate Persona came out fecking badass. Your character alone rose up to meet NYX in the final battle realm, where your friends each reached out to you (both alive and dead) and leant you their power. When you had the max HP, you could do your ultimate move, called the Grand Seal, which left all your friends in a void, looking for you. You speak out to them, and NYX returns to whence it came, leaving peace to return to the world. The Dark Hour disappeared completely, and you came back alive, and in those last seconds of awareness, you looked into your companions eyes and cried.

...

One month later, you're back at school. People who were once close to you now are mentioned in passing, as if you never knew them. Normal gameplay resumes. Can you believe that? NORMAL GAMEPLAY RESUMES!!! You can build links again, you can go to the movies, to eat ramen, to sing karaoke, ALL OVER AGAIN. IT'S NOT THE END! IT'S A COMPLETION OF THE SCHOOL YEAR. GRAAAAAAAAH!!! My boyfriend made me turn it off 'cause he wanted to play. God, I wanna see if I can finish it so bad!!!




I'm so, so, so, so, so sorry about my Persona rambling. This game crept under my skin and went deep. I love the characters, I love the interaction, I love the graphics, I love the story SO much. God, the ending's gonna mess up my head. o-o

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